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tricia ward. nomadic alaskan in deutschland.
Sep 29
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young grandma and grandpa in rome many moons ago (via triciaward)
so my grandpa is probably going to pass on soon, if he hasn’t already. he got pneumonia a few days ago and wanted to be taken off of life support yesterday. it’s strange being on another continent as all of this happens. i considered flying back to alaska, but it would take a day and a half to get there and i would be too late to say goodbye. a part of me doesn’t want to because then it would be real. i am happy that he’ll be reunited with grandma, though. i think that is keeping my soul at peace.

young grandma and grandpa in rome many moons ago (via triciaward)

so my grandpa is probably going to pass on soon, if he hasn’t already. he got pneumonia a few days ago and wanted to be taken off of life support yesterday. it’s strange being on another continent as all of this happens. i considered flying back to alaska, but it would take a day and a half to get there and i would be too late to say goodbye. a part of me doesn’t want to because then it would be real. i am happy that he’ll be reunited with grandma, though. i think that is keeping my soul at peace.

Sep 27
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Sep 26
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Sep 25
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tv on the radio. family tree.

new tv on the radio. seems fitting for right now. afternoons of too much thinking, too much reminiscing.

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Dear Self

Dear Self,

I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately – but not in the same way as usual, so don’t get comfortable.

The fact is, you’ve heard some tough advice lately — and overheard some fairly inspirational perspectives — that need to be heeded.

Life is good. I need you to remember this, and be grateful.

Life is also under your control.  If you’re feeling unfulfilled, uninspired, unremarkable – change it.  But don’t mope. Don’t criticize the people you love most because it’s easier than prodding yourself onwards and upwards.  Cutting them down or illuminating their faults doesn’t do a single thing to assuage your own disappointments or uncertainties.

I’d like to see you concentrate a little more on the amazing, on the abundance, on the possibility.  Not just in the world – I’m not just talking about work, or family or love (though you do have a wealth and a privilege in those).

But I’m looking at you.  You tend to be the harshest critic – of everyone in your life and of yourself.  Wouldn’t it be a relief to cut them and you some slack? To start practicing a deep, sincere grace?

You don’t have to inspired every minute. You don’t have to act perfectly, work harder than everyone, make the right decision, be smarter than the guy next to you, look better than the girl on TV.  You don’t have to do it all right all the time.

I think part of you realizes that….but you can’t seem to stop punishing yourself when you set down those goals and relax.

Breathe. Laugh it off.  Expect less, appreciate more.  Fuck up and let it go. Let them be who they are and love them so much anyway.

Let yourself drift through when it doesn’t matter.

Have the determination and work ethic to stand up and chase what you want when it does matter.

Be Grateful. Be Graceful. Be good to yourself and those you love. Smile more, worry less, stop looking for someone to blame. Let it go and choose to be happy.  Work to be happy.  Leave petty behind.  Remember that your life is your message – even when you’re tired and snarky and insecure.  Send a purposeful message you can be proud of.

Be grateful. Be graceful.  Be faithful.

Change starts today – I know you can do it.

Love Always,

me (via beenthinking)

Sep 24
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random wednesday morning thoughts

  • last night, i had two dreams. the first one was obama winning the election, the other one was me playing with my new lens that i haven’t recieved yet.
  • i’m hungry, haven’t had breakfast yet. i don’t want to have coffee because i have to go to bed early since i work tomorrow, and the coffee here is strong. last time i did that, i got ONE HOUR of sleep. i don’t know what to eat, though. last night, i went to a little asian place on the marienplatz and had their red coconut chicken curry. it was fabulous. cheaper than the thai place that’s closer to where i live, too.
  • i mos def had a mellow weekend. didn’t go out (even yesterday for dollar night at peaches). i really just spent the weekend reading and doing crossword puzzles in the park. that’s definitely the plan for today, especially since it’s sunnier than yesterday.
  • also, i think today calls for gelato.
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since there's no more muxtape...

needed to make a birthday mix to put online. i like the old school tape idea. this is really just tunes i’ve been listening to lately, hopefully they’ll like it.

Sep 23
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Canon EF 28mm f/1.8 (via DannyDoo)
just ordered my new lens! amazon doesn’t ship camera stuff to apo addresses though, so i have to wait for my mom to send it from seattle :(

Canon EF 28mm f/1.8 (via DannyDoo)

just ordered my new lens! amazon doesn’t ship camera stuff to apo addresses though, so i have to wait for my mom to send it from seattle :(

Sep 22
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third eye blind. wounded.

i don’t care what anyone says, third eye blind kicks ass.